Tess got up early this morning with bright eyes and an excitement to start her first of many years in grade school. She cracks me up the way she is always so careful not to give away too much, sitting cool eating breakfast pretending there was nothing special about this day. She didn't want me to drop her off at school, she wanted to go with the neighbors who take Bella every morning, but I talked her into it once I realized I wouldn't get the chance to take photos. She got in line to enter the school with her classmates as if she had done it several times before. A ping of, I don't know, could it have been sadness, hit me as I realized she was more than ready for this moment and didn't need me. She gave me one of her quick quirky smiles and walked toward the door, following the girl in front of her.
I don't usually get sad about my girls going off and leaving me, especially something as simple as kindergarten, and I'm not even sure that's what it was. She just look so big, so ready for this new adventure, almost like she didn't need me anymore. As I watched her disappear into the classroom apart of me knew I wasn't quite ready for to grow up. Then I snapped out of it, she's only gone for 3 hours which seems like nothing really, and well, I know that she will have the best time on her own making new friends, after all it's a part of life I always loved.
So here I am, at home, just me and Megan. It's really something we have never experienced together (last year she was always napping) so I'm looking forward to the chance to get to be with her and reconnect while everyone else is in school. I have enjoyed her. She seems to be quite a different little girl when alone with you. It will only be 3 days a week since she'll be in school the other days, luckily giving me a few hours a week to breath.
Though I always look forward to them coming home and hearing their stories, I am really looking forward to a few moments of peace.
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I can completely sympathize. I went through the same thing with Isaac yesterday. I couldn't believe how ready he was, no apprehension at all. I watched him get on the bus and he smiled and waved. I followed the bus to the school but Isaac didn't even see me, he just walked right in to his class like it was no big deal. I guess I am happy he feels so prepared but I felt a twinge of sadness. It disapeared the moment I got to WalMart and realized how much easier it is to run errands with two kids rather than three.
Life passes too quickly! Enjoy this quiet and enjoy your littles being LITTLE.
This is cool Amy- that you are just as ready as she/they are. I kinda want to be like that for them, excited that they get to move onto the next big thing, but it feels like that is all they are doing right now and it feels so fast all the sudden.
I can't wait to see all you do on those days when you have those hours all to yourself!
You do sound ready - though surprised that she is so ready to go. For me, Kindergarten was not a simple transition, though it appeared to be on the outside. I feel the years passing too acutely, maybe. Luckily for you, you seem prepared to enjoy the moment. Sounds fun!
I so enjoy reading your posts about your girls. You have such a gift fot communicating their perspective and your experience.
The balance and grace you posess has obviuosly been passed along to them.
Enjoy this new stage in the jorney for all of you! Blessings for a successful shoo;year for each of them!
You pretty much described my feeling last week when I took Nathan. He was more than ready, but I kept asking myself, am I? It's a hard thing to let go but I want to raise independent, strong kids (far from what I was) so it has to start somewhere right?
Great photos of both girls.
It is kind of a bittersweet moment isn't it? They are so ready to be off in that brave new world, and it happens so quickly it hardly seems real. At least that is how I felt when Hailey got on the bus for the first time last week.
oh my goodness. i have been on a blogging break and to jump back into all of this goodness you have going on! wow!
i can't wait to really settle in and read all about it. but for now: the bull dog? Too cute.
Your European photos were stunning.
As are your girls...Always love your posts
that foto is just soo cute and there is soo much in her that she is expressing through the foto...again wonderful way of expressing your feelings and hers too!
To not be need by them (even for a moment) is such a strange thing.
Cute Tess, I'm excited for her to get to go to school.
It's crazy because it seems like you've been counting down for the girls to go to school and now all of a sudden it's here!
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