been away

It's 105 degree outside and while I sit here on the computer comfortable inside, I can feel the heat trying to make it's way in. Summer is officially here and wouldn't mind another rainy day to soften the blow.

I just up and left town last weekend. I've never in my life made such a snap decision. Wednesday I sat watching my girls swimming in the pool and thought I just need to get away from the crazy for awhile. I guess you could say I'm sick of getting kick out of my house by realtors at random times and thought getting away would help clear my head. And it has. I brought the girls with me and we're crashing with my parents. We've been swimming and reading and enjoying escaping from what is waiting for me at home...the inevitable move and all the work associated with it.

I was up into the wee hours of the night finishing Coming Home by Rosamunde Pilcher. Although I enjoy the way she tells a story and quite enjoy her characters, I was disappointed with the last 1/3. It was 977 pages so I felt I deserved a little more for getting to the end, but it didn't quite have the ending that makes you sit and think awhile. It was too predictable and not in the good way. Make sense? I brought with me "Angle of Repose" and am looking forward to starting that today at the pool.

Speaking of the pool, it's basically all we've done all week (it's all we really can comfortably do with the excruciating heat). I've finally gotten to the point in my mothering where I don't have to sit next to my kids in the pool. It's perfect here too because we've basically had the pool to ourselves so I can easily sit and watch and know where they are at all times.

I realize after waking up this morning that June is over and I didn't do a giveaway this month. I guess with all that's been going on and really my apathy to blog at the moment (not quite sure where that's come from, I have lots to share), it just didn't happen. Hopefully when I get back I will be rejuvenated and feeling more like me instead of feeling like life is on hold. And I guess that's where I've been and why I wanted to leave town. I hate the feeling that I'm just waiting for something to happen and waiting to find out what the rest of my life will be like when I know very well that life changes constantly...there is no waiting. In Coming Home Rosamunde states, "things only happen once...it can be a bit the same, of course, but never quite the same". So I am trying to remember that my little ones are only little for so long (savor it) and remind myself that in my situation I'm only faced with opportunities. Opportunities to bring us closer to the life Adam and I want. It's unfortunate that these things are not easily had without a lot of work and emotional uneasiness, but I guess if it wasn't a lot of work it wouldn't quite mean as much when you finally got it.

I guess that's enough randomness for the morning. I have lots to catch up on, but hopefully when I am home I will have time to do so and share a month full of photos. Hope your summer has been great.