mood

today i am in a really crappy mood. i don't know why and i really don't need an explanation, i just want to feel myself again.

it seems like it has been like this for a couple of days now. i can't deal with my life, and yet i have nothing to complain about. my life is great, no problems except the ones i create for myself.

doing the same stuff old day after day is getting to me. it's rare that i have time to for myself because there is always something more important to do, or so it seems. even this morning i had a walk planned with a friend. i really didn't want to go because it just takes time and truly i would rather be doing something else while Megan takes her morning nap than exercise. i did go and i am glad i did, forget about myself for a while, but i still feel blah.

i am better than this. it doesn't have to be this way. my husband always says "your head creates your world". boy is he right about that. if i could just change my attitude life would be so much more enjoyable.

in the end i think that is what i will regret most, creating problems where there aren't any instead of enjoying all the blessing that i have. i don't know how to change it, but i must get past it.