Why am I feeling lousy you ask?...
Well, have you ever received a message on your answering machine that said, "I'm just calling to see where you are...are you coming? We're waiting for you." Yeah, I got this message late this afternoon about a luncheon I was invited to Wednesday. The reason I feel so lousy is it wasn't just any luncheon it was with some friends of mine from my ward who had totally forgotten my birthday and they were making it up to me by making me lunch. Ya, that was the lunch I missed. A lunch totally for me. I am disgusted with myself and although I have called each one and talked to them and given my apologies personally I just can't get over this lousy feeling of letting someone down. Not only letting someone down, but totally dissing them when they have gone to such an effort on my behalf. I feel so embarrassed.
To my credit when I heard the message I didn't even know what luncheon she was talking about until I put it together in the end. I'm not entirely sure she told me exactly what she was planning when we spoke about it two weeks ago. It is possible she did and I completely and utterly forgot. Again I feel totally embarrassed and ashamed of myself. How could I be so forgetful?
Sigh.
Well there is nothing I can do about it now, but express my apologies to them, which I have and they told me it was fine and not to worry. Still. I hate this feeling.
So tonight I play my own game. Here is something that makes me happy...
watching my kids lost in play.
and this...
Please tell me something that makes you happy?
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I'm also alone--until Saturday night!!! Oh, how I wish you were next door. I could use a few of my own happy thoughts tonight, but here's one for you: The smell of orange blossoms rushing through a desert breeze, the sun barely set, and an evening set aside for beading...not to mention a Dr. Pepper on pebble ice. Oh, yeah! And my kids ALL three in bed. Wishing for you: less lousy and Adam's arrival!
I'm sorry you forgot, try not to beat yourself up about it. There's no way they would ever think you just chose not to come, so no worried.
Happy Things:
Chocolate
Tivo
Your awesome studio
Ribbon
Blogging
Your camera
Good Mail
Springtime
Music
Game Night
JCW's
need I go on??
P.S. That deleted comment was mine, I was signed in as someone else, oops.
I often ask jeff,
what is something you totally love about me?
something that makes me happy. the fact my camera has the potential to take photos like you, you so inspire me.
Everyone should adopt that 'game'. It is happy! When my daughter & son are playing together & laughing up a storm - I am SO happy! That sound is a fave of mine
-ciao
Sweet Amy, don't be so hard on yourself. Things like this happen to all of us. Something that makes me happy is that you were willing to share your tips on blog headers. I can't wait to try it out!
I LOVE your game. I am so sorry you missed your luncheon. Don't beat yourself up.. it will take you a lot longer to forgive yourself than it will your friends.
What makes me happy...
the smell of rain
family flying in to spend a long weekend
sitting outside and playing with Lulu
Tivo
looking for the moon
blogging friends
I'm so sorry you are sad. I hate feeling like I let someone down. I am so hard on myself that it takes forever for me to forgive myself.
Something that made me happy today was Ryley. She always finds a way to make me happy. I caught her looking at my Child magazine, pointing and giggling at the babies featured. That melted me.
Love your pictures, as usual. :)
Well your pictures make me happy :) Bummer about the lunch. I have been feeling a little blue myself today. I told Doug it was like I ate a candybar and the sugar high lasted until today (Thursday) and now I am on a low. I love that you ask Adam that. Great idea!
Amy, this same exact thing happened to me last week. It was enrichment night and I was supposed to decorate a table and make a dessert, and to top it off, earlier in the day I had seen one of my good friends from my ward and talked her into going to the enrichment night with me. Well, some little things came up and I wasn't able to make it...I not only got one phone call, I got THREE from three different friends. Ug, I felt like such a bumm, and still do, I just don't want to face them. Anyway, it is okay and I am sure they completely understand your situation...I forget things ALL of the time.
Some things that are making me happy right now:
That picture of the sunset you captured--Oh my it is gorgeous!
Warm weather.
Shopping at the mall for myself.
Reading your blog!
Have a better day.
amy, remember what happened with them planning the lunch in the first place. i know you feel badly but i'm sure they understand.
a few things that make me happy:
your photos
a good friend
thursdays
those spontaneous hugs & loves from my "littles"
this springtime weather
Wow, this must be the day of forgetting. I got home tonight to a message saying, "just wondering if we are still on for today and if everything is okay, I waited at your house for 30 minutes, call me so I know everyone is okay".
Ahhhh, someone called to come look at our house (it's for sale) and it was a disaster so I completely forgot about anything else in my day and just tried to get the house cleaned up and get out of there before the people came. So, I forgot about a commitment I had made and thus the message. It is so unlike me to do this and I was so embarrassed. But these things happen, and I'm sure that anyone who is lucky enough to be your friend would forgive you in an instant.
Things that make me happy:
The smell of clean (soft scrub, mr. clean, murphys orange scented spray cleaner)
Raspberry Cheesecake Trifle
The sound of my husband unlocking the front door
When I hear my kids pray for others they know need help
Oh Amy, I honestly feel for you. And it makes me happy to know I'm not the only one in the world who *forgets*. And Blog Inspiration (lots of which comes from this very site) definitely makes me happy.
I chased and missed a sunset tonight. I am happy to have found one here, a replacement of sorts. You make me happy.
Can you make it up to them?
Amy, I hate when that happens! I have done something like that many times over. We are our worst critic though and are definitely too hard on ourselves. They know you mean it when you say how bad you feel.
What makes me happy-
-when my kids make up games together
-sleeping in (a rarity)
-sunsets here in WA (I'm biased)
-spring and fall (jacket weather)
-your gorgeous photography
-Milo's days off
our game is called "three things." any time one of us needs a lift, we ask the other to share three things they love about us.
happyness is...
learning how to make a blog banner!
irish music on a rainy day
forsythia blooming
citrus-scented anything
spelling happyness with a 'y' and not an 'i'
I have been there before and felt like such a chump- so sorry for the guilty feelings. They have probably already forgiven you- so time to forgive yourself.
-Anything baked right now makes me happy
-Pebble ice makes me happy
-Date night tonight makes me happy
Ouch! That is a hard one! I am sure you are embarrassed - but things like that happen! Try not to dwell on it - it was nice of you to call each one though. Some days are rough!
What makes me happy...
reading blogs inspire me & make me happy
photograpy
the ocean
warm summer days
my boys all laughing & playing
a clean house
the sun
good food
chocolate
tivo
I love your game! I think that I will try that one!
What makes me happy is reading posts from friends that I have never met but knowing that none of us are perfect. That somehow makes it all better. A mistake. We all make them. Life goes on and your friends will understand.
watching my little boy share, dancing crazily with him to loud music, morning quiet time, a hot shower, a clean house, an empty road, kisses and hugs, a friend just checking up on me.
oh amy! the fact that you feel so terrible shows how thoughtful and caring you are!
i love your pics and words and they make me happy.
other things:
chocolate
Starbucks coffee
my girls when they are laughing
my girls when they are reading
my scott when he is deep in thought
our hideaway cottage
I play the same game with my husband.
It makes me happy that I have a husband who can make me laugh
I'm sorry I missed this last night. We've all done things like that before. It just kind of makes the bottom drop out of your heart to realize you've totally forgotten something.
Things that make me happy:
Funny kids
Creative Inspiration
A good book
A phone call with a friend
Quiet time to think
Flowers
Learning something new
Planning something silly
I hate it when I miss events! So sad. Things that make me happy: sunsets, good food, a quiet house, a clean house, blogging, the smell of rain, skinny clothes, finishing a book or project, hugs from my daughter, oh I could go on and on. What a fun idea to get your mind back on to positive thinking.
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