photo by jill Oct 06It has taken me a long while before I really appreciated what he was pushing for us. Despite what it may seem, it is not always easy to be honest about the precious things you hold dear to your heart. It's much easier to live a life with no expectations at all so you don't get hurt. I've lived a lot of my life that way. Afraid to expect, to give my all because of the constant fear of being let down. I'm not sure when it changed for us, but there was a moment where the walls came down and the desires of our hearts where talked about. I'm grateful to him for that. For opening my eyes to get what it is I truly want. Closeness. To have the life I always dreamed of. Though, I will be completely honest and say, there have been many times, many times, when I wish I could just closed the blinds and forget I know. Forget how it hurts to not get or give what is needed and wanted. But at the end of the day I would rather love fully and give everything I know how to give the best I can, then to regret years of being in the dark and pretending to be happy. I still have a long way to go. Of all the things we've talked about and how far we've come I know it all comes down to DOING. Giving. Having and living a mediocre life just isn't a possiblity anymore and I blame him for that.
I attribute a lot of who I am to him. Not because he formed me into the woman that I am, but through his constant love has given me a very safe place to find myself. He gives me what I need before I even realize it's what I need. He listens. He talks. He comforts. He loves.
Adam I want you to know that I am committed to us. To our dream. To living a beautiful happy life together. Thank you for sharing yourself with me. For loving me. Truly I couldn't have found a better man to be my husband and to have for eternity.
Happy Birthday!
15 comments:
beautiful post to your adam. he sounds like a wonderful man, husband, father and brother.
i love that you say that you would rather love fully and give everything you know...that is so real and true.
and you are too cute together, by the way!
hope you have a wonderful day celebrating
i am glad that adam pushes you to live beyond mediocre. you (the couple) can reach great heights!
happy birthday, adam!
I love the candor of this post. I love when you say that living a mediocre life isn't a possibility any more...and you blame him. Mediocrity is so easy...I love the idea of marriage being moving beyond that together...making one another stretch beyond merely comfortable. Beautiful.
What a wonderful tribute to your husband! How blessed to be able to SEE more clearly the big picture of your marriage and life!
Beautiful words Amy. You guys sound perfect for one another. I hope Adam has a great birthday!!
This is an awesome post. You actually just made me have an ahh ha moment with my own husband, now understanding why he does things a certain way or reason.
I hope he has a wonderful birthday!!!!
Wonderful post. It sounds like you both are so lucky to have each other and to appreciate what is right in front of you. I hope he has a great birthday!
Thanks love. You know me well enough to know how much it means to hear you say that, and know you mean it. I love. adam
A beautiful tribute to your husband. I just finished reading Standing for Something by Pres. Hinkley. One of my favorite quotes from the book was-
"Love is not blind-it sees more, not less, but because it sees more it is willing to see less."
Marriage is beautiful when beauty is looked for and cultivated.
What a great thing to have to blame on someone-mediocrity not being an option. A very lucky girl!
Beautiful words. It's obvious that you and Adam have a special relationship and that you adore each other. It's wonderful to see.
Very sweet Amy. Happy Birthday Adam!
beautiful, well-written post. happy birthday to him.
-Katie
I love this post for Adam's birthday. Happy Birthday!
very sweet amy. happy birthday adam. i'm glad it's so rich for both of you.
This is truly beautiful, Amy. It sounds like you two have come to a very good place together. Living a mediocre life just isn't a possibility anymore. You are a lucky pair!
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