This is something I think a lot about. I have this deep fear at the end of it all I will look back on my life and regret many things. Not necessarily the decisions I made, but the way I lived. Because of my unfortunate death complex I hold back too often. Protect myself from the inevitable feeling of loosing someone. I am tired of the way this keeps me from truly living and experiencing fully what is most beautiful about living on this earth. Its time to let go. To allow myself to live recklessly with my feelings. Open up to the possibility of greatness instead of stopping short. Keeping in line with what I believe and allowing myself to be who I am. Giving it my all and loving every minute no matter what.
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I don't have a death complex, but still don't feel like I know how to live completely in the moment or to not hold back. I think it's fantastic to try to live with intention and without fear, but it may be a lifelong pursuit for me. I think it's great that you're trying to grow and move on from some of your fears, and it's cool that you can share them with us.
what is a death complex? for sure living with intent makes me think that you are concientious about your existance and want to make it meaningful through your passions...which I think most of us do; however in certain respect it is in those areas of our lives that we are (maybe not comfortable, or unfamiliar that we must elevate our intent) to become a well-rounded being. I think just the thought of wanting to do it, deserves merit!
Inspiring. I feel the same way. I hold back way too much, whether it's feelings, words, whatever. It could be a long road for me, but I want to be going in the right direction!
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