[bella 5th grade, Tess 3rd grade, & Megan 1st grade]
I admit I thought it would feel differently walking away from the elementary alone, kidless for the next 6 hours. I thought I would feel free or sad or a little of both. What I found was walking away from the school alone was the most natural thing in the world, and I guess that's exactly what it is...natural. Each year since Bella was 3 and started pre-school our schedule has changed and the amount of time they've left me for has increased with each one. Where I am today has definitely been a natural progression, we should be here, and so it just feels right.
Perhaps it's not quite hitting me yet, the fact that this is my new reality. That my days will be open to my schedule and not theirs. It's a weird concept after having someone underfoot for over 10 years to no longer have a shadow. I'm sure in a week or so when all the excitement has died down that being alone all day will hit me and then maybe I'll feel the full weight of our new life. I know one thing for sure...I have a lot of plans for myself, projects to keep me busy, activities to keep me moving in the right direction. I definitely want these six hours to count and be meaningful.
For now though, I am grateful to feel like everything is aligned and everything is as it should be.
xoxo,
amy
I admit I thought it would feel differently walking away from the elementary alone, kidless for the next 6 hours. I thought I would feel free or sad or a little of both. What I found was walking away from the school alone was the most natural thing in the world, and I guess that's exactly what it is...natural. Each year since Bella was 3 and started pre-school our schedule has changed and the amount of time they've left me for has increased with each one. Where I am today has definitely been a natural progression, we should be here, and so it just feels right.
Perhaps it's not quite hitting me yet, the fact that this is my new reality. That my days will be open to my schedule and not theirs. It's a weird concept after having someone underfoot for over 10 years to no longer have a shadow. I'm sure in a week or so when all the excitement has died down that being alone all day will hit me and then maybe I'll feel the full weight of our new life. I know one thing for sure...I have a lot of plans for myself, projects to keep me busy, activities to keep me moving in the right direction. I definitely want these six hours to count and be meaningful.
For now though, I am grateful to feel like everything is aligned and everything is as it should be.
xoxo,
amy
13 comments:
i can't imagine how this feels.
although i have just one child in school, the reality of my work schedule means that back-to-school is more of a convenience. i *wish* it meant more time for myself, more time to create.
i hope you enjoy every hour of your new reality!!
Thank you for sharing your perspective. It's so refreshing! Good luck to your little ladies at school! :)
I was surprised how natural it felt and how the giddiness of it hasn't worn off even though I've had 3 years of them both being in school all day! It's wonderful to have that uninterrupted time to do the normal housework, plus whatever I want to do. I hope you enjoy it!
I'm glad you are adjusting better than I did! When I put Griffin on the bus for kindergarten, I called Kim crying and said I just had to have at least one more baby . . . now he's in 1st grade and here I am 8 months pregnant!
Oh, your girls are so cute! I love how HUGE backpacks look on the newbies. :D
Also, I've passed along a blogging award to you. I just love your blog! Come check it out.
And last, but not least, I made a button for your "12 of 12" photo sharing. I wanted to add it to a list of photo blog hops, but couldn't find one, so I made one. I hope that isn't too pretentious of me. I'm sure you could make one that is infinitely cuter than the rather bland thing I made, and if you do, I'll definitely replace what I've got there. Anyway, just let me know if you'd rather I remove it. I'd hate to step on any toes!
I am anxiously awaiting how this day will be for me. Only six years to go...
Liz thats great. Thanks. I've thought of doing it myself but yet another thing I never get to. If I do I'll let you know.
Dani crazy. I'm thinking you'll be ready.. :)
Woohoo! That will be me in one more year and I. can't. wait.
I know this has been a day in your mind for forever and how interesting that it felt right...no guilt for being too happy or too sad. I felt the same way, though with Henry it was more of a quick pull of a band-aid than when it's something you anticipate for months and months. I do enjoy the time and the space but am glad I enjoy them when they are home too.
Good for you! I've read so many posts today of people who were so sad, it was uplifting to read that you felt...normal!
Its bitter sweet, but spread those wings and fly amy!
I love this post and i'm so glad it feels so natural for you. There is a time for everything - enjoy it!
Also, I can't believe how much each of your girls looks like you, each in their own way. Even Tess, who I always thought looked like Adam, reminds me of you here.
Thank you to share this; that is good for me to hear that because my little boy will go to school next week and i 'll miss him for sure.
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