2. I'm listening to my children in the other room watching The Incredibles and keep telling myself to get them to bed. It's inevitable that I'll race in there in a rage because they're still awake and yet it's my own fault for just not taking the time to do what needs to be done.
3. I'm at my computer half in my jammies and half in my street clothes. I'm not sure why I didn't go all the way and get completely comfy, but here I sit half and half, a lot like my mood I guess.
4. I'm turning up the volume on my computer to drowned out the noise of my kids to keep the guilty feelings at bay. I'm listening to the Weepies and I finally bought The Killers Album.
5. I'm eating chocolate and keeping telling myself I should stop. It was so nice of my mom to buy me my favorite m&ms (peanut butter), but I'm a bit upset with her as the bag is almost empty and it's been one day. Drat.
6. I'm in this strange what am I doing mood. From about 3:30pm today I haven't wanted to do anything. It was weird, two kids napping, Bella involved with her homework, which left me alone for once and I had no desire to do anything. I haven't felt this way in a long time and it scared me in a way. What will happen when I have ample time on my hands when my kids are at school all day? Will I take for granted my time alone by wasting it away since I know tomorrow will bring with it the same quiet? I hope living will become just as easy when it's more convenient to do. Ha! Perhaps another one of my happy contradictions...is life ever convenient?
7. I just read the quote "Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact." -Henry James.
8. I keep feeling this big zit on my neck that has been there for at least a week. Why won't it go away?
9. I feel like going dancing which I haven't done in years, perhaps loud music and my bedroom will suffice.
10. I'm looking out over the city of tiny lights and wondering what's going on in the lives under it. Dancing. Eating. With loved one. Sleeping. Blogging. Creating. Driving. Homework. Texting.
11. I'm signing off. Good night.
10 comments:
Ok, I am just sitting here thinking... If you are feeling guilty for not putting your kids to bed by 6:56 when you posted, what time do they usually go to bed? That is so early. I know you all go to bed early but I would have to wrangle my kids to get them to sleep that early. What is their lights out time? Just curious.
I think this will be a post you look back on and are glad you posted. That glimpse into one day that will be priceless. I get that way too after reading a lot and feeling like I come up short.
I have those same guilty get my kids to bed feelings when it is all on me to get the ball rolling- and often blog with jammie pants on the bottom and day clothes on the top.
It is actually good to know that sometimes you don't feel like doing anything! I have been like that lately and it IS scary. Now it feels more normal. Tonight is the first in a while I felt inspired to really create and I think I needed the break.
Glad you posted today.
robyn it actually was almost 8pm (my blogger is set at pacific time...long story)and the kids go to bed about 730.
I love it when you post when you don't feel like you have anything to say. I can relate, but I still get inspired when you feel like you are coming up short, so keep on posting.
Love the quote, and I am glad to know I am not the only one who can down almost a whole bag of peanut butter m&m's in a day. Well, who am I kidding, really I eat the whole bag...
And lastly, I think all of us need moments when we just don't feel like doing anything, but I agree, I feel like I've wasted time away.
I agree with so many of your thoughts. There have been several days when I don't feel like I have anything "blogworthy" to post.
Peanut butter m&m's are my favorite too. I actually just commented on Jill's post today that they are what I had for breakfast. :)
I loved this post! A little glimmer into Amy's evening. Super fun. I agree with hannah. I think you'll be glad you have this snapshot of a typical evening.
Yeah, I do sometimes wonder what business I have blogging! I think that's sometimes why I go a day or two without posting. And you are definitely alone in your ability to go through a bag of m&ms... I especially like the big easter egg ones.
I enjoyed the glimpse into your day. I live in the half and half a lot. It makes me a little crazy but I don't seem to stop.
I wonder about the kid free days too. I think it is one of the things that makes me not be too anxious about sending them back... I think I would waste a lot of the time anyway.
glad i'm not the only one who has these half and half moods, and that my afternoons are not always as productive as I have time for. your honesty and insight are always appreciated.
Yeah, It's an adjustment to have all the kids in school.
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