So calm and back in my daze I went to seek out the said girls that left me treasures. I found them downstairs giddy as can be to be watching TV, yes, that made me happy (I so remember those times as a kid), but the mess that surrounded them (how can they not notice what they're sitting in?) brought back all those feelings...must all my efforts be in vain?! Again I attempted to calm myself by saying, one day I will miss seeing mass amounts of toys scattered all over the place, one day I will miss this. Right?
I have to admit I don't know if I'll ever miss this...the jury is still out on this one
Seeing piles and piles of Megan's clothes all over her room. It infuriates me to no end because we clean it up daily. Will she ever learn? I fear this may be the view inside her room 12 years from now.
I may miss this...
after all it's just toys and it does clean up easily. It also speaks volumes and tells me I have happy kids in the house, but it is frustrating for this to be the first thing I see when I walk in from my garage. Why can't they just pick up after themselves...is it so hard to do?
I decided the best thing for me was to leave so I didn't get really mad, particularly at Megan. As I walked up the stairs and back to my room mumbling to myself about the injustice of it all, I passed my door like I always do and saw the pictures the girls hang up for us randomly (I also have some on my studio door). It made me smile and I thought, I will definitely miss this.
I will definitely miss seeing pieces of them throughout the house even if it does mean tripping over Cinderella shoes because the mess and the noise means they are here. Of course in the moment, where I am now, it's not always easy to see it that way. So I go throughout my day, most days, reminding myself that one day I will miss this even if I'm not missing it today.
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i've been reading the book, The Mother In Me, its a compilation of essays by mothers, it has really made me realize how much i take all those "annoying" little things for granted-- your post reminded me of an essay i read in that book-- we will miss it!
oh my gosh. It looks like an adorable mess, I guess because it is not mine. But ohhh surely, I am very impressed at your reminder...and repeating it again and again. I think I will try this, as I do end up giving in and getting all upset from just having had to pick it up a while earlier. OHHH yeah....BREATH, thank you for the reminder. I really really really NEEDED TO HEAR THIS.
Good perspective, Amy.
I don't THINK I will miss the mess. (I guess I may surprise myself.) But I will definitely miss their pictures and loving words!
Good job focusing on the positive! It's hard to do that sometimes. Just today Ashley was squealing and screaming (in delight) and making a whole big racket and I told myself the same thing. She's happy, she finds joy in everything... this is a good thing. Embrace it. I love the photos- so good to document it all. The artwork is especially sweet.
Its true. I have to remind myself daily not to wish it away, that someday they won't need me to fill sippy cups or wipe their snot on my pantleg...But in the moment...I hear you.
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