I feel soft today. Not sad. Not sad at all just thoughtful, a little tender.
I think part of it I will blame on Meet Joe Black. After watching American Idol last night I looked at the clock and realized I still had some time ahead of me so I began to watch one of my favorite films, Meet Joe Black, that I noticed had previously recorded. Many many good lines in that film, not to mention just looking at Brad Pitt is delightful, but what stayed with me last night as I curled up into my bed was this quote given by Anthony Hopkins, You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.
It's nothing I don't know or nothing I haven't heard of before, goodness my talk in church was pretty much all about that, but last night it made me think. It got me to stop and look at where I'm at 3 weeks into the new year and wonder, am I living?
I think I am for the most part, however, there are still bits of me that want to run and hide. Pieces that don't know how to deal with the unknown, with that which I fear. Is it not easier to throw your hands in the air and proclaim that you can't do it any more, that it can't be done, that you're not willing to try? You know it is, but then where would we be? Nowhere I guess. Nowhere.
Sigh.
I apologize for my random and yet all too familiar words. I think it must have something to do with my life cycle. As much as I would like to break it I believe it is with me to the end. And I guess that's a good thing because it keeps me moving, thinking, and hopefully helping me live.
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I loved that post! I have been feeling somewhat similar lately, but didn't really know how to express it. Your words have just done that for me, and it was very touching. Thank you!
Wow. I feel like you were speaking to me. I have had a really tough week, full of a lot of decisions, wondering if I am living, doing all that I can. It is a daunting task at times, when we look at all we need to do, all that is expected of us. Sometimes we need these 'soft' moments to help us push on. Thanks!
I think as long as you are asking yourself if you are living, you are. If you are coglizant of it, then you are trying, you are living. Meet Joe Black made me kind of melancholy too.
That picture is very striking and this post is very well timed for me.
I think that constantly asking yourself that question is powerful- you are aware, which is more than some people can say.
This time I of year I get those same thoughts- like I can really live out my life the other seasons of the year, but winter is more of a struggle. I am craving spring.
I really love that picture. I am a fan of that film and brad pitt as well. Such great thoughts. I think it is important for us to have those moments that remind us to ask ourselves if we are on the path we have chosen for our lives.
i threw my hands up in the air not thirty minutes ago. i wish *soft* was the only thing i was feeling these days.
great post. thank you.
amy, i love the picture with the feeling state: soft. and i like the "soft" not "sad." i find myself in that pensive, soft place at times. i think that being aware is half the battle.
by the way, i'm always amazed at your ability to get a really great quote out of a movie and remember. impressive.
I like how you described feeling "soft," I have never thought to word it like that. I have never seen Meet Joe Black.
I need to watch Meet Joe Black with you because I didn't enjoy it. I couldn't take Brad Pitt's acting. He was constantly jerking his neck around with a "huh" look on his face. Perhaps you could convince me otherwise. Or we could just disagree. I'm o.k. with that.
Anyhow...not really an appropriate response to your soft post, but I agree that our personalities and experiences make us cycle. I constantly wonder why I am not over some of the hurdles placed before me and then I think of the track meets where once you get over one, there is another one to jump over that looks pretty much the same. There...that's a little more appropriate.
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